i cant wait for this week to end. im so tired already from all the school work. last monday i had my finance test from 6-8. after taking the test alvin and i had dinner and then i went home na. as soon as i got home i just took a bath then i started on my philo paper. i was up working on it until 4 am. i was still 4 pages short but i decided to go to sleep because i was already hungry!!! haha there wasn't food yet because the helpers weren't wake yet and i was too scared to go down to our kitchen to grab some snack. hahahah so i just slept all my hunger away!!! (poor tumtum) i woke up at 6 to finish my paper. good thing i finished it by 8. i had enough time to get ready for my 9 am class.

yesterday was crazy also. i didnt really get to rest anymore. i had to meet up with my history groupmates for our skit, presentation and paper. aarrrggghhh i hate it when teachers give out too many requirements! hindi naman sila major subject!!! hahah anyway after the meeting i had another one for my LS class. my groupmates and i interviewed ron for red horse's organizational structure. that ended at around 9 pm. after the interview i still had to read and study for my history quiz today... super titing.. i want sleep and a massage! hahaha

anyway i still have a lot of things to do for the rest of the week. i still have to read 130 pages of michel focault for philo and then there's the LS pass 2 on friday. Lord save me! hehehe i have eye bags already because of all the school work!!

p.s.
despite all the crazy things in school, my new planner keeps me happy! haha i made one for myself since i got bored with the planner that i was using! hehehe i might sell the planners next year! hehehe id post pictures later!! hehehe (sobrang proud sa ginawang planner!1 hahahah)

i just got home from a get together with my highschool barkad. hahah barkada even if we're only 3 in our group. we had dinner at eastwood and then we went to bonifacio high street for cup cakes and coffee.

anyway it really is fun whenever i get to see kookie and kat. the two never fail to make me crack up. i love how we would all talk about high school and laugh at our stupid and silly selves way back then.

high school really is fun and high school friends are definitely for keeps even if you only get to see them once in a blue moon...

this is a happy day!!!!

cheers everyone! i hope you guys had a fun day too!!! smile!!!

i hate you today....

i hope i wont be hating you again tomorrow...

don't worry i'd be fine...

i could take care of myself...

thankyouverymuch...

"And you know what, if you're aspiring to be one, GO FOR IT. No one should tell you that you're not capable of becoming one. Stand up for yourself. And as long as you know what you want, and not step on anyone's toes, you're ready. Just remember that once you're out there, the world will judge you. But that shouldn't stop you. If you have God and you know you can go through it, don't stop. Don't stop until you get there. I'm telling you, I might not be there yet, but its all worth it. And don't ever let anyone's opinions affect you. Its your dream, and your life. Prove them wrong. Just make sure you don't lose yourself on the way and take the wrong road.People will always point fingers and you and put you down. That's part of it. As much as I hate it, its will always be there. Belittling will always be a part of the show." - Abbie Almasco

when i got to read abbie's post, i took it as a sign!!! heheh its now or never!!! heheh im finally giving it a try!!! hehehe tomorrow is the day!!!!

belated happy valentine's day everyone!!!

yesterday alvin adn i celebrated hearts day in a different way. we didn't watch a movie or had a fancy dinner. we no longer have money for that since we celebrated our anniversary a week before. hahahah wala ng pera to go to a ncie resto. but its all good. celebrating vday doesnt have to be very lavish and expensive. we just wanted to be together. masaya na kame dun. we had dinner at flaming wings and he surprised me with carnations when he picked me up for dinner. surprise kasi sabi niya wala na talaga siyang pera pambili ng flowers! haha pinakita pa wallet niya!! hehehe we also went to the spa to have our bodies massaged! heheheh yun na yung pinakdate namen!!! the massage was great!!! heheh pamper pam and alvin!!! woohoo!!! hahah wala nanaman kwenta sinasabi ko... ah basta masaya yung valentines kasi kasama ko si alvin... masaya kasi mahal niya kao mahal ko din siya... masaya kasi alam ko hindi niya ako iiwan... masaya kasi....hhhmmm basta masaya...gets niyo na yun... hindi ko na maexplain e.hehehe

my dad has a photoshoot for BPI today!!! hahah nagmodel!!! naunahan pa kao maging model e!!daig pa ako!!! hahahah oh well...

2nd anniversary

yesterday was perfect. alvin i dint have surprises for each other. we both agreed that no surprises this time and surprises should be saved for our birthdays this year. he said he wanted a simple celebration. so there id idnt prepare anything for alvin. i myelf just wanted to be with him during our anniversary.

we had lunch at flaming wings. lunch was great. good food plus good company. i love how alvin and i can talk and laugh about anything. i simply love being with him.

after class alvin brought me home. i dressed up and then at 6 he picked me up for our dinner date. we had dinner at sprial. it's westin's version of circles. their food wasnt as great as circles but their desserts were absolutely better! alvin reserved one of the best seats! super cozy.... basta we super enjoyed. i got super kilig when i caught alvin staring at me while i was eating. super fun dinner. simple but very romantic. oh and the poolside of westin was very nice. it was fun walking around their mini resort. the weather was perfect. everything was perfect. i was even with the perfect man. haaaayyy.... i know this entry aint that detailed but last night was wonderful. i feel so inlove... hahahah keso!!!!

i love you alvin jay!!!

happiness

happy 2nd year anniversary baba!!!! i love you!!!

too thin is in???

i just finished watching tyra banks' show. the episode today discussed anorexia and how the media and the fashion industry influence the people to be super thin that people especially teenage girls end up being anorexic or too thin. i know that i myself once became too obsessed and conscious of my weight. its sad to be called fat and to be called a pig. that's a fact. no one would want to be called fat, baboy or even ugly. anyway, its just crazy that teens are obsessing about being thin that it gets to a point that they would starve themselves to death just to be like the girls they see on magazines. i used to 140 pounds way back in high school, i am 5'6'' and now i am 110 pounds (i lost 5 pounds because i got sick but im usually 115 pounds). yes there would be times when i would feel that i am fat. i guess its natural for girls to feel conscious most of the times but i know my limits. i know the border line of what is good and healthy for me. people usually think that i no longer eat because i lost a lot of weight. but i do eat. i don’t want to be super thin. i don’t want to look like a corpse walking around the face of the earth. im done with that phase where in i am so obsessed about my weight. i am more comfortable with myself now. i think that beauty is not a matter of how much you weigh in the scale. beauty is more than just physical. beauty transcends numbers shown on the scale and the reflection you see in the mirror. its somewhere inside of you. beauty shouldn’t be seen. it should be felt.

its sad that at present being beautiful equates to being super thin, long hair and flawless skin. its sad that beauty is being boxed by people. its sad that beauty is being stereotyped by the media. its sad that the perception of being beautiful kills a lot people.

its good to be sick...nah

its good to be sick... NO!!!!!

the only thing i like about being sick is that alvin gets super sweet and protective whenever im sick. he'd always visit me here at home and bring me flowers. alvin would always be like a strict dad telling his little girl not to be so magulo and to rest all the time. he's so cute whenever he tells me not to be magulo. i like it when he says that he wants to take away my sickness. its sweet when he'd always check for my temperature and would always remind me to take my medications. i love it whenever he'd leave me get well soon notes and letters. i just love how he takes care of me whenver im such a little sickly girl.


last october. i had high fever for 5 days. he visited me everyday. he even stayed until 2 am during the day that my temperature reached 40. he's only allowed to go inside my room whenever im sick. anyway he was just there in my room sitting on my bed while i was sleeping. he would constantly wake me up to take my temperature and to put bimpo on my forehead. i'd never forget that night. i even caught him crying. he said that he cried because he got scared. i was super sick at that time kasi. he also said that he doesnt like seeing me like that and that he wish he were the one who's sick and not me. i know that he would have stayed up until the morning after only if my dad dint ask him to go home. hehehe i even cried when he left. he was super sweet and caring at that time that i didnt want him to go. i cried because i really felt like i was dying already and that it would be the last time id see him. hahah ang drama ko noh?? hehe basta that was the sweetest thing alvin did for me. i knew that my parents really admired him for taking care of me that night. my mom and dad would even check up on him if he was still ok and if his rents werent looking for him yet... haaayyyy....

anyway even if i get so kilig with all the sweet things that alvin does whenever im sick, i still dont like getting sick!!!! gusto ko ng gumaling at mag gain ng weight!!! Lord please... ive been a super nice girl... please make me feel better...please...

i lost 5 pounds in just 3 days. i hate it. i got sick over the weekend that's why i lost so much weight. now im back to being under weight. i super dont like it because its hard to gain weight!!! woar. i also hate it that im sick because i cant do anything. im just stuck on my bed watching tv and sleeping. lord please dont make me sick again.

job hunting

i sent out my resumes to the different companies i liked that were a part of our school job fair. i need to get into a company for my ojt. management economics majors are not required to have an internship but i want to work this summer for the money and for experience. hehehe i hope i get called back by a nice company. hehehe anyway while passing my resumes, i realized that looking for a job is really hard. its more of being at the right place at the right time. im scared. what if i dont get a job after i graduate. i dont want to be a bum!!!! im going to have a month long vacation after graduation then i want to start working. hhhmmm... i want a job that wont bore me... i think office jobs are boring..hehehe i want to work for a magazine or do something about fashion or travelling. heheh pero i dont want to be a flight attendant, i cant be away from my family for a long time and i dont want to spend christmas away from them (talk about being a baby) hehehe anyway i have a year to think of what i really want to do. one more year to prepare for the "real world"!! hehehe


** i wore my alvin's girl shirt today!!! im proud to be alvin's girl..hehehe (alvin has the same shirt only pam's boyfriend is printed on it.)


**
ate sarah, my pregnant cousin is naglilihi. and luxury items are her things. she got 2 new brand new lv bags and a rolex watch from my mom just because she's naglilihi...heheh i dont want to be like that when im pregnant...kawawa asawa ko..hehehe pero if we'll be super rich ok lang!!!! hahaha

new layout

the old one was boring so i decided to change the layout of my blog. its super vibrant! the new layout makes me want to blog and blog and blog. hehehe i guess im always like this whenever i change my blog layout....ciao!!!

2 more weeks!!!

i have two more weeks to prepare for our (alvin and i) anniversary. i really don't know if i should have a surprise or gift for him. hehehe he said he doesnt want surprises anymore since last year was full of surprises but i love surprising him. how am i supposed to top the surprise roofdeck dinner last year. hassle. i really cant think of anything right now... with or without a surprise its all good!!! all i want is to spend the day with him. .. waaaahhh it seems like we've been together for more than 2 years already.parang ang tagal na... heheheh maybe its really like that when you're happy and when you're contented with what you have. i cant ask for anything more when it comes to my relationship with alvin. its not perfect for sure. all relationships has its flaws but im happy and thankful that with alvin, we always try to work things out. hahah darn it. im blabbing again. i really cant write properly. hahahah my sentences are not cohesive. hahaha im jumping from one thing to another. hehehehe

anyway kary asked me last week how it feels like to be with alvin. i went super cheesy and told her that with alvin im sure that its not just the idea of falling in love and having a boyfriend that im in love with. im preety sure that this time around im already in love with the person and not with just the idea or feeling of being in a relationship. =) hahahaha

ok this is too much blabbing already.... i know ive already made my point that im super happy and in love!!! hahahah baduy!!!!!!!!

*having long breaks make me crazy=)

chicken run

im such a chicken.

hahahah right kary?

8 months and i still havent done anything...

darn it pam...

promise next month i'll go give it a try na...

wala ng hiya hiya ...

hahaha

yes im baduy...

yesterday was pamper pam and alvin day. after my LS longtest, alvin and i went to footloose to have out foot massage. an hour of foot massage plus 15 minutes of back, scalp and hand massage...heavenly... the massage was very relaxing that i fell asleep. hahaha after that we went back to katipunan to look for something else to do because we still had an hour and a half before our next class. we ended up having pedicures at the new spa, my cool mint spa. the rates there are very reasonable and the place is so nice. we're going back on monday for body massage!!!!! hahahaha woohoo we decided to have mondays as our pamper me days.=)

**
call me jologs.. my sister and i went to eastwood yesterday...why???? because we wanted to see billy crawford!!! hahahah i know i know..baduy ko!!!!! hahah but man he is super hot..as in flaming hot! hahahaha...billy can we have a picture taken with you??? hahahah what the fudge pam?? hahaha fanatic!!!! hahah but man he is hot e..hahahaha so what?? nakakahiya nga lang.. hahahah oh well... if you see me on one of the GMA entertainment/news shows, just deny that im your friend. the gma cameras focused on us while we were having our pictures taken with billy kasi..hahahah jologs talaga..haha but its all good. its fun to be baduy... hahah

flaming wings

had lunch at flaming wings with missy,frankie and alvin. it was supposed to be a bsb lunch but we were the only ones who were free during the planned time. it has been ages since i last "went out" with missy and frankie. we all had chicken wings and chicken tenders. oh wait, before having my chicken tenders i already ate a peanut butter sandwich, chicken mongolian and a light mocha frappe. haha talk about pigging out. anyway, while eating we just shared stories. we just talked and made kwento. hehe im happy that frankie is back to being giddy. you deserve your pretty boy really soon!!! and i hope missy finds hers soon too. they are the two people who deserves to be happy when it comes to their love life. hehehe after lunch we still had an hour to spare so we did what we usually do..BSB time. hehehe then there was marry shag kill...we were just laughing the whole time... it was fun. i missed eating/pigging out with them.. =)

**im lusting on a new phone. the nokia 7390, pink v3x and SE z610i are now out of the picture. im thinking of getting the new n76. well it was just announced by nokia and still doesnt have a release date so it would still take a while til i get a new phone. its all good though. now im really sure this would be it. hehehe big screen, clam shell type, 2 mega pixel camera with flash, nokia made, slim and 3g capable all i wanted in one phone! heheh now i wouldnt have to switch to a moto or SE phone...

photo blogging?? nah

i was supposed to post pictures but freaking pictures wont get uploaded. i got a 91 on my finance long test!! heheheh my highest ever in accounting/finance!!!! i wasnt expecting that kind of a grade.


heheheh pictures to be posted on my multiply!! hehehehe



i'll edit this later...=)

i havent been driving for 2 days (didnt bring a car yesterday because alvin and i went to my dentist after class. today naman the exped is coding and the lynx is still with ford for tune up and all so mama had to borrow the explorer.). hehehe its nice to have a break from all the freaking katipunan traffic. i like it when i have to walk to school from shakey's where mama and papa drop me off.

anyway there are lots of things to do and im not in the mood to do one of them... hahah what a way to start the year right? heheh i'll just work on them when i get home. i just want to surf, jump rope, go to the beach, watch movies and read chic lit books!!! hahahaha i can't wait for summer!!!

ladidadida 23rd monthsary tomorrow!!!!!!!

happy new year

christmas was great!

had the usual noche buena and opening of gifts with my family. christmas is always good because i always spend it with my fmaily. with or without presents as long as i am with them i'll be happy. on the last day of simbang gabi (i completed it!!yahoo 5th year for me) i went to confession and the priest told me to read corintianhs 13 as my penance. after reading the passage i felt great! i dont know exaclty why but it seems like something was lifted from me. =) anyhoo.... christmas day was spent with family. lunch at the pascual-david reunion then dinner at the ramos reunion. got lots of moolah from relatives!!! i can now buy the phone that i want with all the money i got but ive decided to put them in the bank. hehehe im waiting til feb or march. ladidadida anyway basta masaya ang pasko!!!! hehehe hope you guys also had a merry christmas!!

the day after christmas, my family plus our travelling buddies went to baguio. stayed there for 5 days. there was nothing to do. i guess when you go there 3-5 times every year you'd just get tired from doing all the things that "tourists" do. eheheh we just enjoyed the super cold weather and played games at BCC. saw a lot of people there too. its always good to go to baguio during christmas time.=)

new year. fire works. torotot. fun fun fun!!!! hehehe tinatamad na ako magkwento e.. basta masaya!!!!

january 3. two year ago alvin and i had our first date. we're better now. we're stronger. we're still very much in love..=)