last night was sad. when i got home i saw that my dad was already home. he was early. he didn't go to work pala because he had another test for his kidney. then i saw my mom, her eyes were red. she cried. she told me that we should all pray for papa because the test results show that his kidneys are not functioning well. his results show that his kidneys are working 30/20 when it should be 50/50. they don't know what's the cause yet but the doctors think that it's because of his hyper tension. i wanted to cry becuase i was scared for my dad but i couldn't because my mom would just cry harder. my dad said that he'll be ok and he's fine. i know he's not feeling anything bad right now but what if his kidneys make him weak? my dad has always been healthy and i never saw him weak. im scared.

earlier today my mom went inside my room and told me that she couldn't cry infront of my dad cause he'll just get sad. my dad hates seeing us cry kasi. anyway she told me that she 's scared also. it's the first time that my mama cried to me. i was crying also. my dad might undergo kidney transplant. i didn't want to cry that time. i wanted to be strong for my mom but i broke down. i cried with her. all i said was that we'll be ok and that we'll get pass through this. i know we'll make it. papa will be ok. he's strong. God will help us be ok. he'll stay with us and guide us.

im crying again kasi im really really scared. please pray for my dad's health....

i had a super weekend.

saturday:
i woke up at 5:15 am for alvin's PATAFA. he only gave me 5 minutes to dress up and take a bath because teh last minute he changed his mind and asked me to watch. at around 6:30 alvin and i, together with his teammates, ate bfast at mcdo. i had longganisa meal and egg mc muffin. hahah i really am starting to pig out (last thursday it was roddick's and pizza hut spaghetti with roasted chicken for lunch). after eating the events started. Alvin had to throw discuss and shot put. i super got excited and nervous during his events. he said he didnt do well but i think he did. the 4x1000 event was nerve wrecking. oh and some kids/competitors didn't wear shoes during their event. kawawa naman they don't get any support from the gov't kahit pambili lang ng running shoes. anyway i got moved by those people who still pushed through with their events even if they don't have shoes. haha sabi nga ni alvin they have in grown spikes. hehehe after all the events alvin and i left na.

as soon as we got to my house, we had lunch and then i changed na into my recto/binondo clothes. alvin brought me to ateneo where i met up with my groupmates and then as soon as we were complete, alvin left na. he had to go home to rest because he wasn't feeling well.

my groupmates and i rode the lrt to recto. the lrt ride was ok. when we got to recto, hazel picked us up and we drove to binondo na. we visited the church and we had coffee at starbucks. after an hour and a half of chatting we walked to ongpin street. at around 5:30 we went back to the lrt station na.

when we were on our way home, i was super sleepy i almost fell asleep while standing up inside the train. alvin picked me up at the station and we went t my house to get dressed for our date.

as soon as i got home, i took a bath and dressed up. did all that in 20 minutes! hahaha alvin and i went to eastwood. had dinner at heaven and eggs, walked around eastwood and had coffee at starbucks. it was one of our best dates. basta it was super nice and simple. we got to talk, laugh, relax and enjoy. i really can't explain it but thinking of that night makes me kilig. hahah i really can't put it into words. alvin does that better so read his august 27 entry na lang. i got home at around 11.

sunday:
had mass...

lunch...

merienda...

tiendesitas...

dinner that lasted til 11 in the evening...

sleep...

im too lazy to type...

i just hate it when someone breaks up with his/her girlfriend/boyfriend just because the one he/she liked before likes him/her now. oh and i hate people who entertain suitors, who they know are already taken. my God are you that desperate to have a boyfriend that you'll even go for someone who already has a girlfriend.

oh well. when i heard about this, i just had to pity the girl who was left for a someone who wasn't worth it.

chill lang im not even related to the people but i really hate it pag may mga nangugulo sa mga relationship ng mga tao e... gggrrr... hehehe

yahoo

finally the week has ended.

i can't wait for tomorrow.

im watching alvin's tune-up competition.

im going to quiapo or divisoria with my philo groupmates for our paper.

im having a dinner date with alvin.

6 more days and im turning 19. i still feel young though. hahaha

p.s
i love you alvin jay!

feeling better

last week was super hectic as i have said in my previous entries. the opman longtest is finally over as well as the marketing pass 1. ive been having long hours of sleep already but still i feel tired. plus i still have killer eye bags. hahaha

anyway yesterday was fun. alvin and i studied together. its fun whenever we just spend time with each other. tawa lang ng tawa. its nice when we also get to talk about things we usually don't discuss like our plans after college , bla bla bla. we also had lunch with maklene. i haven't really spent time with bsb since the start of school. there are lots of stories to share so we better go back to tagytay as soon as possible. after lunch alvin and i studied again. at 430 we went to the college cov courts na for his game.

some villamore against B. i enjoyed the game. during the first quarter i thought that alvin's team might not win the game since B's defense was pretty good but during the second quarter some villamor heated up and lead the game. alvin scored a lot! woohoo! the game was super intense that i finsihed it before going to my opman longtest hehehe. last 2 minutes and some villamor was ahead by 11 points! B tried to stop the time by having fould but the free throws that some villamor got just increased their lead. so yeah some villamor won. hahah alvin got fouled out din pala the during the last minute. hahaha

after the game, i had my lontest na. it was ok. hehe im wishing for a good grade. after the longtest i went home and slept.

**** im cutting 2 of my classes today for opman. me and my groupmates would go to taytay rizal to visit the cement factory. then hrd ga at 430.

im excited for tomorrow!!!

tired

im tired. marketing is killing me. plus there was eco and opman and philo. waaahhh i can't rest and relax this weekend because we have to cram the marketing pass 1. by tuesday id be needing lot's of concealer for my eyebags.

things have been great except for marketing. effin nestle almost backedout on us the last minute. i hate them.

im too tired too really update,

i love you alvin jay!

gucci and lv

mom really knows best! hahaha im still in a bad mood but my mom made me a little happier!! she gave me a gucci and lv belt! hahah i like them! hahaha makes me remember the first pair of gucci shoes i had.. i can't wear them anymore kasi they're size 7 e now im a size 9/10!!! tapos my little sisters get to wear all the lvs, pradas and gucci shoes my mom owns kasi they have the same shoe size! and she's only in grade 5!!! waaahhh!!!walalang... hahaha

im in a bad mood. i don't know if it's because of the rain or just because im a self centered B*&(^. hahah anyway i actually thought id get to eat out with alvin after his class but he had to do improtant things first so there i just went home. im pissed because he alredy said we'd eat out after his class but when we were there na in front of his car he suddenly blurted out that he'd be doings omething instead. haha great. i was looking forward to eating out pa naman din. haha i sound lame i know. its just food ladidadida. but im pissed not because i didnt get to eat. im mad at him becasue he told me the very last mili second. sana hindi na ko umasa at naexcite na we can go out. i know we always go out but i hate it when i get ditched the last minute. haha see i told you i can be so self centered. oh well. basta naiinis ako ngayon. hassle. i hate this day.



or maybe i just have post menstrual period. haha but im still pissed at him.

***

i had lunch with alvin's family at Kimpura today. Kuya Alexis came back from singapore that's why we ate out. I haven't seen the kids for a long time and i was happy to see them. the twins are still tiny like before but andi grew up so fast. she doesnt look like a two year old kid or maybe its because the twins are small. anyway the food was great. anyway i was a little silent during lunch because i still feel shy around alvin's family but at least im a little more relaxed now. hahah after lunch we had ice cream at hagen dazz then alvin and i went to greenbelt 3 to have confession.

i like the feeling after having a confession. i feel so light and happy. i don't know maybe its God's magic/miracle. finally i can go to communiona gain. it's almost a month since i last had communion. freaking hundred island trip didnt make us go to church kasi. hahaha anyway yun lang i feel so happy right now not just because i almost have evbrything but because i know that God has forgiven my sins. i just have to avoid doing them again.

moving on.. after confession alvin and i went back to glorietta to look for running shoes. we went to different stores na but i didnt find anything that i really like. but im thinking between getting new balance or the addidas shoes i super like. alvin told me kasi that new balance shoes last long. after the unseccessful hunt for the perfect running shoes, alvin and i bought a new stylus for my xda and then we went home na.

i just stayed in bed and watched tv when i got home. i feel so tired because of the week that passed. my 11 hours of sleep is still bitin. i want more sleep and more rest. plus a massage!!!! hahah

ciao!!

i love you alvin jay! XxXooO

sunday morning

i feel good. i slept for 11 hours. yay1 i finally got my beauty sleep. hahaha anyway im eating lunch with alvin's family today because kuya alexis is back from singapore. im going shopping after hahah oh and confession too! hahaha

i really don't know what to say. haha i just feel rejuvinated! hahaha

super random

i am tired.

philo class was super boring and our group didn't get to report again.

im starting to love the explorer.

so many org work to do.

i want to take a break. (go to the beach or tagaytay)

im going to do something about my dreams. hahaha

its my birthday month na pala! haha i just realized it today! gawd its been a year since my debut already.i want to have another debut hahaha!!!

im having lunchwith alvin's family tomorrow! yay! im seeing the kids!!

alvin jay, i love you

alvin jay

the past few days have been perfect for me and alvin. we have been spending quality time since monday. i guess school work, org work and his training have kept us both busy. yes we have been going out but when we go out its usually just to eat or shop or watch a movie. yeah its quality time but the past few days have been different.

we still go out to eat, shop and watch a movie but there are moments when the two of us would just talk about anything and laugh about anything. we even laugh for the most shallow reasons. during times like this that i enjoy alvin's company the most. i like it when the two of us can just relax and enjoy each others company. i like it when we can just stare into each others eyes and still be happy and contented. it is as if our eyes are speaking good gracious i am being such a freaking keso peroson again. but i can't help it. im so happy right now because alvin and i have been having the best time in the world. going to the mall is an ordinary thing for a couple to do but it makes me feel such a bliss because of alvin.

he always says and does the sweetest things. he can be super sungit sometimes but i don't care he still is the most understanding and patient boyfriend in the world. hahah i know im already blabbing but i can't help myself but talk about how happy i am to have alvin. i love him and i know that he loves me. heck i even think that he loves me more than i love him. hahah basta ewan ko ba. i feel so happy right now. ok im going to stop talking about me and alvin. im just happy and i want the whole world (everyone who gets to read my blog) how happy, lucky, blessed and gratefull i am that i have alvin in my life.

alvin jay, i love you so much!

thursday

i had a long day. i went to school at 7 am for my 730 marketing class. as usual my class was full of presentations from past final four groups. we saw two presentations today, one was the willy wonka group and the aroma theraphy group. i wish our group would make it to the final four. hahah anyway after marketing was philo and as usual our group didnt get to report. only one group was able to present. we will report on saturday instead. boo. we'd be reporting in front of 80 people! waaah!!! after philo alvin and i ate roddick's for lunch then i went to my 11 oclock class na. opman went well today. i like opman a lot plus longtests are open notes! sir pilar is giving back our longtest on tuesday i hope and pray that i am not one of the people who got low scores.

after school, alvin and i watched click. i like the movie. i love adam sandler! but i love alvin more! hahaha i got new havaianas again! yay i finally got silver metallic havaianas! it was the only 39-40 pair in rustan's! yahoo! after onths of waiting i finally got one!

now we are broke again! hahaha im doing no school work today! yahoo!

i super love the weather! its cold! i love it! hahaha im jogging again tomorrow! im starting to like jogging but i only do 10-15 rounds. i dont want to over do it kasi i might loose weight nanaman. i dont want to get thinner! hahah im happy with my weight now! i just want to get toned and have abs! haha vain!!! hot body here i come!! hahaha

alvin jay, i love you!!

i feel sleepy. maybe its because i just had dinner and i got tired from jogging. but i can't sleep just yet. i have to finish my philo report. but we a have a 75% chance of not reporting tomorrow. but i still have to finish the second part of my report plus i have to tutor my little sister for her exams tomorrow.

anyway the theology longtest i had was easy. it is the easiest theo longtest ever i just hope i'll get a high grade on that.

alvin and i are going out again tomorrow! pig out session again and movie! im not shopping tomorrow hahaha unless i see silver metallic havaianas! hahaha

i had a super nice day.

after class i met up with my marketing group mates and then at around 2pm alvin picked me up already because we have to go to Banawe to have something fixed. It was already 330 when we got there. I was super hungry at that time that i just slept inside the car. after 20 minutes of sleeping Alvin woke me up and said that we were leaving already.

I woke up cause i don't like sleeping while he's driving. We went to Tomas for our super late lunch. it was laready 4 when we got to Teriyaki Boy. Since i was super hungry i ordered tempura, yakimeshi rice and yasai itame! hahah i was super full after eating! alvin and i wanted to eat something sweet pa after but we couldn't decide where to eat so we said we'll just go home.

we were already at kamuning when the two of us decided that we both want to go to the mall. haha so we went to the mall. i wasn't supposed to buy something but i ended up buying new havs haha i finally got one of the metallic colors that i like! then alvina nd i had our rings engraved at the jewelry store. we also went to the nokia store. i saw the N93 model. i didnt like it its so manly for me haha i'd rather buy the n73. now im decided hahah i'll save up for the n73! im tired of my XDA na e..hehe and it is such a hassle whenever i drive, shop and walk hahaha

anyway my tita gave me work to doa nd she's paying me 2000 pesos for typing. haha i took the offer cause its going to be super easy lang! hahah im looking for more rackets cause i need money for christmas and for the new phone!! hahaha

anyway...i love it when alvin and i get kilig over the little things. haha basta its nice that we still get giddy even if we've been together for a year and a half. our relationship is not perfect, we do have fights but its nice that we get over them easily and that we still love each other the way we do before! hahah basta im still kilig!! hahaha

love you alvin jay!!

just got home from shopping. i didnt find anything nice for alvin though. boo. but i got myself 2 tops and a pair of shorts. haha shopping ba yun?

anyway its going to be our 18th month together but we can't go out and have a date cause i'll be going to tarlac in a while and he's still training in rizal. boo again. but there's monday and tuesday or maybe the whole week for us to celebrate! hahaha. i miss alvin already. im happy. really, if you were on my shoes, you'd understand why i keep on saying that im happy. he's just the best boyfriend. basta i can't explain it properly but i know that he's the best boyfriend. he's the perfect one. hahah i can't wait for 2011/2012.

i love you alvin jay!!! advanced happy monthsary!!!

happy

im going shopping today with mama! yay! i can go shopping for alvin too!one more day til our 18th month!

i love you alvin jay

meco ga

its 8 in the morning and im blogging.

i missed the tryout for the new recruits. i wasn't able to wake up because i went home late from the ga yesterday.

the ga was ok. at first i thought it would be a huge flop because it was already 6 pm and the people weren't there yet. but at around 7 when we started the program the people stated coming in the venue already. we were able to rech our quota naman. i modeled. hahaha no comment. anyway after the oficers were presented i left na because alvin told me that his mom was asking him to pick him up. we had to leave pronto because she gets pissed daw sometimes when she has to wait (according to alvin). so there we left the ga then when we got to edsa it was super traffic. white plains was traffic too. alvin called tita mildred and told her about the traffic and then kapoof! she said she'll just commute to their house. hehehe so there alvin and i went to starbucks na lang to drink coffee and have a slice of oreo cheesecake! yummy! we went home afterwards.

alvin jay reyes, i love you!!!

yesterday was super tiring.

after alvin's training we went to rockwell for the models fitting. the designer for the men's clothes was late for two hours. we went around powerplant already, ate dinner and played at landes and he wasn't there still. as soon as he arrived, the guy models started fitting. almost all of the pants don't fit!!! darn it! only 2 guys fit in the pants that were brought by jpoi. good thing he has bigger sizes at home. he'll bring the bigger sizes today for the fashion show. stress.

the ga has been stressing me really. im just happy its all ending today.

Alvin has been extra sweet to me lately. he said kasi he felt like he aint doing enough and he's taking me for granted. but now i feel that i am the one taking him for granted. haay life... but life is good!! we're still inlove with each other (hahah time to stick your tongues out) hahah keso huh??

love you alvin jay!!

frustrated model

it was super cold when i woke up today. my sister and i didn't turn on the ac last night because it was raining. it got super cold that i slept with my winter socks on. im already using my conforter as my blanket but i still felt cold. hahaha that's how easily i get cold. anyway when i woke up i felt super cold and then instead of having my usual cup of coffee before taking a bath i decided to take a bath first because i was running late on my usual tuesday morning sched. it takes me at least 15 minutes to drink my coffee in the morning that's why i took a bath first. when i turned on the shower kapoof no hot water yet! the helper didnt turn on the heater!!! waaaahhh i had to wait for 3 minutes before the hot water poured out of the shower. hahaha i love hot baths on cold days!!!

at around 630 alvin picked me up na. i know its too early for my 730 class considering that i only live 2 minutes away from school. the freaking traffic can really get fucked up sometimes that it takes me 30 minutes just to get to school. so instead of getting late alvin and i decided to go to school early na lang. marketing class was ok. father david is back. im happy he didnt begin with the cretean city discussion. opman was fun. i like that subject. i hope i do good tomorrow!!!

anyway...ena won the seventeen teen model search! yay for her! i remember ais and i talking about joining that contest back in highschool. hahaha alvin even wanted to send an entry for me last summer but i told him not too kasi im shy! hahaha oh well i guess im not just for modelling! but i still want to be a print ad model! hahaha sorry na vain!!!! kahit na pond's. globe or coke ad lang!! hahah dream on pam!!! im not model material kasi e... hassle!!! hahaha ok imma stop now! frustrated talaga!!hahaha im studying for opman na ulit!!! end of my break!!!

i love you alvin jay!!